Day 10 May 3
Read: Psalm 51
Reflect on: Exposure of sin is the worst - or so it seems! The 2 Samuel 12 account of the prophet Nathan's confrontation with David over the sin surrounding his relationship with Bathsheba creates a situation quite familiar to most of us. Familiar, yes... but one I tend to avoid at all costs! And as if the humiliation and heartache of being exposed isn't enough, Nathan piles on consequences that bring even more anguish in David's life, driving a knife through his heart; "the son born to you will die." (2 Sam 12:14)
Somewhere in David's life journey, he allowed his focus to be quietly trained away from the Lord and all that he had seen the Lord do in his and Israel's behalf. Maybe it was the adulation of the people. Perhaps it was the raw power of his throne. Regardless of how, the root of it is David's journey into himself. A relentless temptation for every human being; even for those who call God their Father.
Psalm 51 is a soul-ache spilled out in words. A hemorrhage of the spirit that compels us by its sheer accuracy. If we've done much living, we can't help but identify with David's groanings, because it's so much like life... like my life and maybe yours.
Adoration: David's appeal for mercy comes in the context of praise for God's undying faithfulness (vs. 1). Even as we were trying to avoid it, the exposure and humiliation become the foundation for a renewal of our trust in God. Praise in the midst of our failure grows and cultivates our faith. Take a moment to express your faith in His undying love for you.
Confession: Confession of sin is an integral part of the process of true repentance. Repentance involves both the recognition of sin and sorrow over the price of that sin to the Lord, in the lives of those we have wronged, and even to ourselves. Anything less is possibly just another side road to self. To guard anything while confessing is to miss out on the Lord's cleansing and healing from that sin. Take a cue from David's words in Psalm 139:23-24 - "search me... know my heart.." - ask the Lord to show you where you have offended him, then respond like David in this Psalm: Confess guilt (vs. 3-6), ask for cleansing (vs. 7-9), and then appeal for restoration (vs. 10-12). Listen for His reassurance and know His healing. Then thank Him...
Thanksgiving: As you read vs. 14-15, imagine David's spirit being lifted as he sings. As the burden lightens, he expresses his great gratitude for God's wonderful forgiveness and healing. What was once a precious gift can quite quickly become a taken-for-granted entitlement. Through His grace and mercy, we move back to gratitude - which inevitably results in a renewal and filling with His peace and His joy.
Supplication: A good place to start may be in prayer for those who have been hurt or estranged due to our sin. Make a list and put their names before the Lord, asking for their healing. Then pray for yourself, just as David did - pray for healing, for strength, and for the will to remain obedient in the future.
Oh Lord, God of all holiness, search me and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Show me any offense that is within me...Father, please cleanse, heal, and strengthen me to consistently choose obedience to You and Your Word. Thank You so much for Your great forgiveness given through Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen.
Dean Crist
Pastor, First Christian Church